Warning! If you get grossed out reading about girly goo and other bodily functions quit reading now and pick up on another post!
I left you on a “high” in part 5, we finally had good news. So now we had to wait until my next cycle started so that we could start the new fertility drugs. February comes around and I had some dark brown spotting, but never a full-on period. March comes around and does the same thing. Strange enough they were during the time that my normal period SHOULD have shown up (not that I was in anyway “regular” but it was about the time I should have expected it.) So after the second time I called the fertility doctor and she had me come in to review what was going on and see what our next step was.
I headed to the clinic and she told me that those dark spotting’s WERE my period, but I wasn’t having a full blown period because of doing too many cycles of clomid the year before. My body was completely screwed up and had no clue what to do. So doctors orders were to do a month on a birth control pill to “make” my body have a period. I was really un-easy about this, and really struggled with being ok taking a birth control pill when we were trying so hard to get pregnant. But after talking with some girlfriends and understanding that my body needed to build up the estrogen lining so that it COULD shed, I started the birth control on April 9th.
During the time of taking the birth control I had a few people say some pretty negative things about Christians using fertility drugs to get pregnant – that I wasn’t trusting God to give us a baby. Now I know that yes, God did create a woman’s body to make babies, and when our bodies work the way God intended we don’t need to use fertility drugs. BUT we live in a world full of sin, sickness, chemicals and things God never intended for our bodies to “live in” when He created us. So I didn’t really believe these people when they said I wasn’t trusting God to give us a baby – I know that even with fertility drugs He still is the giver of life, and only HE can create a baby in a woman’s uterus. But the whole fertility drug thing well, I was questioning. I was struggling. So I started praying…..hard.
If you know the story of Gideon in the Bible he really needed to be sure of what God was telling him to do, so he laid out a fleece and asked God to let the ground be wet and the fleece be dry if this was really God’s will. The next morning it was so. So Gideon prayed again and asked that the ground be dry and the fleece be wet the next morning – the next morning it was so. Now I don’t always pray this way, but I needed something tangible this time. So I prayed for something so impossible, I knew that if it happened that it could ONLY be God, there is no way that any person could have made this happen. I also set a deadline – because I needed to be able to cancel the drugs that we ordered so we didn’t spend a bunch of money on them.
The deadline came and went, and this thing I prayed for didn’t happen. I immediately felt a peace about continuing with the treatments. It was so weird – like a light switch almost.
So on May 8th we started Fermara (another drug like clomid, but it doesn’t stay in the system for as long as Clomid does) and on May 12th we started the injections of Gonal-f. Brian had to give me these shots because the thought of sticking myself with a needle gives me the hee-bee-jee-bees! He did great, and it didn’t hurt hardly as much as I worked myself up that it would.
Here comes the fun part. Brian had a work trip (of course!) starting right about the time that I would be ovulating (these things always happen to us! oh well!) So we planned ahead and had a sperm sample frozen just in case Brian was gone when I ovulated. If he was still here we wouldn’t use it, if he wasn’t here I would use it – clear as mud?
May 17th rolls around and I go into the clinic and the Doctor does an ultrasound on my ovaries to see if they are ready to ovulate. She saw follicles in BOTH ovaries and they were both large enough to ovulate. So the nurse gave me a shot of Ovedrell – which is a drug that will MAKE me ovulate – my body has no choice BUT to ovulate.
May 18th – I took an ovulation test around 3 p.m. and I had my first positive ovulation test. The smiley face was pretty amazing. Yep, I cried my eyes out over it!
We were told to try and have sex as many times as we could over the next 2 days (the 18th and 19th) but of course Brian was leaving REALLY early on the morning of the 19th for his work trip AND we had tickets to see the Detroit Tigers play the Texas Rangers that night (the 18th) So we had to get “busy” in a fairly short time period. So we did!
Now the wait begins…..
Look for Part 7 coming soon!
Make it a GRATE day!